"Deal With"

I have been trying to "deal with" so many problems and issues in my life lately that I don't know what to do anymore. Recently though, my girlfriend sent me the website of a shaman and "tentshaker" who does healing sessions to help people... well; heal. It isn't like medical treatment, or psychological help, but a method that helps you to release the negative energy and let the good flow through again. I have been looking at this site over and over for the last while and each time I want more and more to try it.

I've tried counselling already and for a while; on the surface it helped. Unfortunately The good effects didn't last. For the times I was there, and just after I felt genuinely happy, and releazed, you know? But now? Wouldn't you think something would stay good? Nope. No such luck. I still keep everything bottled up. I'm still angry all the time. The emotions I feel most often are still hate, anger and sadness.

Nothing else is working. Maybe if I try this tentshaking thing I might get somewhere with the issues. The only problem: The shaman is part of my girlfriend's family.